I went off my birth control pills about a year ago when my husband & I thought we might start trying in summer of 2010. That didn't happen but I never went back on the pill, mostly because I had been somewhat irregular after coming off of it. Before being on the pill for 5 years, I never had a late or missed period in my life. You could set your watch by my 28 day cycle. After being off the pill for a year, my cycle has settled into a mostly predictable 27 days, which I was frustrated by at first, but eventually came to accept.
Of course, this month, when I'm paying particularly close attention, my period jumped the gun. Mother Nature evidently does not take kindly to my assumption that I'm in control of my own fertility. I just hope this isn't an indication of things to come.
I've always wanted kids, and always been into baby stuff thanks to a large population of babies in my life. As such, I've also subscribed to the general attitude that you can't rush things. I have worried that talking too much about our baby making plans, reading too much, or just thinking too much about it. I know that it doesn't really have an effect, but I still try to stay quiet.
That being said, I'm hoping to capture some of my thoughts and feelings here while we're still early in the process, knowing that later I might not want to or might not have time to.
I'm still a good week away from ovulating, and I have an ovulation stick test under the bathroom sink just waiting, if nothing else, to banish a certain set of fertility fears.
In the mean time I'm trying to eat healthy, get enough exercise, and keep my weight and stress levels down. I've lost about 5 pounds in about 4 months, which isn't much, but it is evidence that I'm able to make an impact on my body if I'm thoughtful. It's also evidence that I'm not able to make a big impact on my body without making major diet overhauls. Sorry if that was a little non-sequitur, but it's something that weighs on my mind and I think it's a good idea to put it down on "paper".
I'm looking into another pregnancy/baby/parenting book to read and thinking about digging into something on vaccinations. If you read this and have a recommendation, I'd love to see it.
In the mean time, I'm not sharing this blog with anyone who knows me in the real world because I want to be able to post in real time, but I really don't need friends and family knowing the inner workings of my lady parts.
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